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If we could wake up in a different place, could we be a different person? Could we change everything about ourselves and start to assemble a whole different personality? Or will we just be the same person, the same skin, the same personality in another setting?

Does the look, the feel and the emotions of a place honestly change a person?

Charlotte has changed me, to what I believe is a better person, but I need a change. This place is too similar. The people too recognizable. Every place I go I am left with a feeling of dissatisfaction. I want to be different, I want to be me and I have given up too much of me to this place. Or maybe I'm just not happy with who I have turned out to be. Maybe this is me, this is the truest form of who I am. Although either of these theories may be correct the complacency is killing me. Like Virginia Woolf said in the movie the Hours... "I'm dying in this town!" That quote could not be more real and applicable to the situation at hand.

...with the same man. Six months enjoying the a relationship that I thought would never blossom.

why does he have to have an ex that still has feelings for him and he have feelings for his ex!?!?!?!?

While the world looks forward to a giant meltdown of the icecaps due to global warming America sits in its SUV's totally aware of the fate ahead. We watch the world slowly melt away from our shopping cart from Walmart. We watch as our country blindly buys homes they can not afford just to live an American dream. Is there every going to be a time when we put our guns, our mcmansions away and adopt a more healthy lifestyle? When will we start focusing on the populace instead of the individual?

typing makes life seem dull

and thus the period of having friends lasts less than a week...

great. where's Kirk?

This summer I've had a lot of time to think. A lot of time. I've been alone a lot and I've come to the conclusion that I don't like to be alone. I like to have contact. I like to be with people whom I love. I've learned it's time to give myself up and either conform or to separate myself from society. I'd rather conform if it gets me some sort of happiness. Ayn Rand was right. Society doesn't appreciate differences but rather appreciates people that stay in the same place and have steady constant lives. Yes they are dependable, but do they ever really enjoy life. But today I realize as everyone around me has pointed out to me once or twice. Being different is mostly looked down upon and achieving a great wealth, a family, and a suburban home is the American dream that all people in this world should want. So I don't know what my future has in store for me. Shall I live the life of conformity or live a life trying to prove something by myself?

disco makes everything better

When stagnant I feel empty, but while moving I feel empowered. I wish all boys were like him and that people didn't mean so much to me. It is actually rather dumb that this crush is still going. It has to be of jealousy and even if they broke up today I don't know if I would ask for his hand. You learn so much from the people you think that you love.

if you're angry and you know it clap your hands

Life can seem like it revolves around people and events. You may think you need other people in your life to make you happy but really those same people make your life the tragedy that it is.

what seemed inevitable before, seems impossible and improbable

My life consists of work...drink...work...oh I tried to start playing Simcity, but nope. Work is okay it is just to fill up time and make some money. I can't stop thinking about being in other places and being with other people. I can't stop thinking about the mistakes I've made. I thought work would help me not to think, I thought Simcity would help me not to think. Why is drinking the only way in which my mind can be totally empty of thought? I need to travel to a Hippie commune and just try to develop some peace. I am supposed to be on a mission in which I am raising money so that I can live in the place where I want. For some reason, I dont want to go back because that will mean only more thinking and searching. I thought searching was over but I'm still lost in the supermarket...

Rihanna where is my umbrella?

Finding yourself lost in an absraction, finding the absolute, the common ground. When one finds what they think is the true common ground they come to the realization that in fact this is not a true general feeling that rather they are in more abstraction, that no true constant, that no true "common ground" exists in their life, truth is different for everyone and thousands of possibilities of what is right and what is wrong is different for everyone. The truest form of self-actualization is to not judge, is this true? I think it is, and it is a general thought that is decided by a group of scholarly people, but it is a universal, and we live in a world where no universals exist and thus no one can be happy the way that one person is. Not everyone can achieve full self-actualization with the ability no to judge. Our lives are disconnected and we strive to disconnect ourselves from each other but inevitably we crash into each other trying to create a universal for ourselves and the world.

we live in an society that chooses to feel rather than to think. Teachers ask "what do you feel?" You don't have to think about what you feel, how does someone refute what you feel. Feeling is emotional, it is irrational. When you sit down, read and logically think about something you are developing a rational belief or ideal, you are believing, you are thinking...you are critically analyzing the information that you read in front of you. The way in which our discourse is transmitted is mostly through television, television relies mostly on pleasure, an emotion, a feeling. Television applies to the senses. Television is used in our schools, jobs, where we eat, even in libraries. How do you teach philosophy and visually entertain someone? We are feeling not thinking...we are living in an irrational visual world where our president can be decided because he has "good hair and he seems nice."

sSpring break was pretty awesome and it seemed as though I got a taste of everything our metrolina/piedmont and coastal area has to offer. Myrtle Beach for a couple of days with Lenny, Raleigh, head back to Charlotte for thursday and friday, and then back to Raleigh, and then back to Charlotte.

Charlotte is so much more fun with a fake identity, you can't even imagine.

Pete Doherty is so hot, why would Carl Barat not want to make out with him when they win an award?